Transparency

I had said when I first started this blog, that it would deal with everything that was going through my head. Well, here is a time where I am just being brutally honest with myself and to anyone who happens to read these.

I am in need of prayers that God really starts working on my heart to battle temptation. It does me no good to go around, "helping" others, lifting up God's name in worship, etc... when I myself am living in filth. It is only a dishonor to the One God that does all that is within His power to lift me out of that filth.

I recently read, and studied, through Hosea; and if there is one thing that we can take from that book it is that God is a holy and righteous God. He does not allow imperfect, flawed, sinful things in His presence. However, something applicable to myself that I learned was that I am under the banner of Christ, and His righteousness is imputed to me. What a blessing it is that Christ is willing to stand up for me, even when I sin.

My struggle as of now is that my sinful, human, fallible heart is waging war against the God of this universe... I know in the end there is no other outcome but that my heart will succumb to His Glory and Power... but man, right now I just need prayers that I can listen to His Words when temptation strikes; and it strikes when I least expect it, and when I feel invulnerable.

So readers, and God... be there for me. If I seem like I'm really upbeat, or having a great day, just ask me upfront how I'm really doing. We all need accountability.

Thank you to my friends who love me, and have offered so much help for me. God bless you all.